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My apology and explanation

March 24, 2011

To all my readers and fellow blogging friends, I offer my sincerest apologies for my prolonged absence.

I started blogging for two reasons – first, I have always held an interest in current events and politics, and believed my perspective of such would strike a chord in at least a few people out there, and secondly, I have always wanted to write.  Fleeceme has allowed me to fulfill both of those purposes, but it has revealed something darker in the process, something I have been wrestling with over the last month.

Before this blog, my knowledge of the world around me was incomplete yet still much greater than the average American (not saying much) – I knew what ills were plaguing this great country, but was not fully informed as to the motivations and processes of the players behind those ills.  Of course, I am still not totally informed, but I am much more knowledgeable than before I started writing about this stuff.

And this knowledge is the problem.  To misquote Michelle Obama, “For the first time in my adult life, I am not proud of my country.”  And this feeling of discord about the country I have served, defended and loved has been tearing at my soul.

Blogging about current events necessarily requires one to read about all the insanity that spins around us on a daily basis – the willfully ignorant are the eye of the hurricane.  I stepped into the storm, and for a while, I could take it.  But over time, the winds of Obama’s change have buffeted my resolve to a point where I was ready to retreat back to the calm and serenity of the bliss of the uninformed.  And so I did, as many of my fellow bloggers have probably noticed my absence from their blogs discussions – my sincere apologies, and much love for my friends who have not abandoned my blog in return.

I do not like this feeling of hatred for what my country is now – I am a patriot, and an American – to feel anything but love for my country is a state of being I never contemplated as possible (for myself) and I was ill prepared to handle it.  Withdrawing from the world of political blogging was a necessary step into getting my bearings.  I have done so, and I am back.

I still love America, but not the America we currently possess.  Edwards is right, there are two America’s, but not his class-warfare inducing stratification.  Instead we have the America right now, a country ruled by man not law.  The America of the here and now is antithetical to the other America, the true America, that follows the Constitution which formed her.  It is that second America that I will renew my cause and purpose to fight for.

I almost let the leftists win.  Their assault on the true America was an indirect assault on myself – and instead of standing strong and resolute in purpose to defend the country I love, I retreated.  I have been shamed, and once again, I apologize for my weakness of heart.

I rejoice though in knowing my heart is growing stronger by the day.  The leftists in this country and the rest of the world have knocked me down, but I am not out.  I tell you today, my resolve has never been stronger to do what must be done to reveal their incessant plot to push the false America down the path to her ruinous end.

I know I will never be able to write with the frequency with which I started this blog, 5-6 posts a day.  But I will most definitely be writing much more than I have over the last month.  So again, thank you to all the people who have stuck with me, probably wondering what the hell happened.  My apologies for running out on you good folks, I won’t let it happen again.

19 Comments leave one →
  1. March 24, 2011 8:11 pm

    Welcome back and no apology needed–I can assure you that what you felt has been felt by all of us who try to blog every single day. There have been many times which I have felt like walking away…..asking myself why I do this, and I understand exactly what you were feeling. There are times when a break is needed in order to keep your sanity. We are glad to have you back!

  2. March 24, 2011 8:20 pm

    Welcome back my friend. The frustration has been building all over Colin. I feel at times I’m watching episodes I II III of the Star Wars play out in America. We’re witnessing first hand the end of a republic and we feel helpless to stop it. Brutus stabbed Caesar to save the republic and yet there was a sense of sadness when Caesar’s fate was sealed on the ides of March. The sadness was because Caesar represented all that was great and all that what bad about Rome. He was charismatic and larger than life, while at the same time conniving and ruthless. His goal was to reform the republic; he just didn’t realize the cost would be his life. The lesson to be learned here is that sometimes we need to step back and not be so reactive. We need to collect out thoughts and understand that even a pawn can checkmate a king with the right support. That what we are to each other and that’s why we will succeed my friend. Again welcome back.

    • March 25, 2011 12:59 am

      Thanks John, I feel most horrible for letting you guys down over at Sentry Journal. I will get back to posting there as well. =)

      • March 25, 2011 6:10 am

        No problem Colin. You are still part of the team.

  3. March 24, 2011 9:45 pm

    Wow… It is going around Fleece! I saw “NoOneOfAnyImport” writing the same thing tonight. Now I see Steve saying the same thing. I have been battling it hard core for about a month now myself. Everytime I write something of my own, I get so “exhausted” and infuriated and disgusted and saddened and on and on that I find it harder to come back with something new. Some days the pain and anguish over what I’m(we all are) seeing is just too much to take. I can’t remember how we got here so quickly, let alone what another 2 years will do to all of us. I needed an outlet for my thoughts and rants, and just like you I am now finding myself delving into the realm of darkness. I write as if it will awaken someone and things will change, only to find myself frustrated when I turn on the tv and it seems like yesterday was so much easier than today is.

    I’m glad you’re back. I tried to take 2-3 days off only to have it turn into a full week. I felt better afterwards and I hope you have the same results! Keep up the fight!

    • March 25, 2011 1:00 am

      Thanks. =)

      Yeah, I saw NoOne wrote about the same problem, its sad really. Damn government is beating us down, lol.

  4. LD Jackson permalink
    March 24, 2011 10:04 pm

    As Steve and John have already said, I am glad you are back. I know full well how draining it can be to read and try to write about the current events in our country. Sometimes, I feel like sticking my head in the sand and singing out loud to drown out some of the racket.

    Colin, my friend, I have missed you and wondered where you had gone, but just figured that life had raised it’s ugly head and you were otherwise occupied. You were missed while you were gone and once again, I am so glad you are back. Keep up the good work.

    • March 25, 2011 1:00 am

      Thanks for the kind words Larry, it is good to be back with such good friends. =)

  5. JustFacts permalink
    March 25, 2011 8:12 am

    Welcome back. I’m glad the forces of darkness haven’t overcome you completely. What all of us need to remember, when we continue to see things drift in our wonderful country, is that we cannot accomplish a reversal independently. WE are the answer, we’ve been waiting for (I hate to paraphrase the Won, but I couldn’t resist). No one of us can accomplish this on our own. The more of us that write, the more that others will have an opportunity to read the truth. We need to support each other because it is going to be a daunting task. But, if we don’t do it, who will? Our Constitution is too important a document to allow to be subverted.

    We must maintain our principles, but we must remember that sometimes the lesser of two evils buys us the time to fight on. Voting for someone who has no chance of winning only facilitates the election of someone we really don’t want in office. This is especially true when you read about in Michigan where the Democrat Party leaders are being indicted for putting fraudulent “Tea Party” candidates on the ballot to water down the conservative vote. We must educate ourselves, and then spread the word. Elections have consequences.

    • March 25, 2011 9:48 am

      Thanks. =)

      And you are correct, the Constitution is too important to allow these damn socialists to shred it in the name of social justice.

  6. March 25, 2011 8:47 am

    Fleecy! [hugs]

    It is so good to hear from you. I did indeed wonder what was going on. And I missed you. Welcome back to the crazy farm!

    John Carey is correct, the frustration is building all over the place. I’ve seen it at Eastern Right, Down Under On The Right Side, Questioning w Boldness, WORM, and several others took hiatuses recently. I’ve seen it with a politically active family member as well.

    As QwB notes, I feel it too.

    For you, it is that feeling of discord–the discomfort in being disappointed by the country you love and once served militarily.

    You are not alone in that.

    Consider if you will, some of the current active duty members. Consider the plight of conservative active duty members who are in the middle of a long term military career. They are still fulfilling their oath to uphold the Constitution, during a time when they see their own Commander-in-Chief stomping all over that document. They cannot complain.

    They are still in the middle of their commitment to place America’s interests before their own lives, during a time when they question whether their country is even worth this sacrifice anymore. (Obama money! From his stash!)

    After examples like Capt Honors and Major Hasan, they are fully aware that political correctness is more important to their leaders than hard work, leadership ability, or even troop safety.

    They joined the military out of the desire to serve, to be a part of something bigger than themselves. And now they consider themselves nothing more than hired mercenaries.

    This . . . is pure conjecture btw. I don’t actually KNOW any military folks who have said these things . . . .


    [hits the post button quickly and flees]

    • March 25, 2011 9:51 am

      Thanks so much. =)

      You have brought much shame upon me for running away and whining like a girl when I didn’t even contemplate what my brothers in arms must be going through. (I thought serving under Clinton was bad – he is freaking Patton compared to Obama)

      • March 25, 2011 10:40 am

        LOL Dude, now you’re gonna make ME feel bad. I’m not trying to bring you shame! I’m just trying to show you are not alone, but amongst folks who understand.

      • March 25, 2011 12:09 pm

        Its all good, lol. =)

  7. bunkerville permalink
    March 25, 2011 11:35 am

    I have missed your postings, and passed by to look for your return. I too took a week off for the most part, and it refilled the engine. This is all part of the tactic. Wear them out. and they have had some success at it. When I started several years ago, I would spend much time trying to find something out of the way, mostly unreported. Now, it is a tidal wave of possibilites. No one person can keep up with this nonsense. At least it can be said of us in the future, we did what we could, but the majority chose to remain ignorant. But it wasn’t because of us that it was so. We shall soldier on.

    • March 25, 2011 12:10 pm

      Good stuff, and thank you for the kind words. =)

      “At least it can be said of us in the future, we did what we could, but the majority chose to remain ignorant. But it wasn’t because of us that it was so. We shall soldier on.”

  8. March 25, 2011 8:58 pm

    Hey friend…you just got a little burned out. I’m feeling it a bit myself lately and I’ve recently had over a month off from blogging. It’s frustrating sometimes and I almost feel like I need another hiatus. A lot of us aren’t professional writers or political pundits. We don’t do this for a living and sometimes life gets in the way. Glad you’re back. Been keeping an eye out for new posts.


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